There are moments in life that push us to accept that change is a constant, something that cannot be outrun.
And this is where I find myself now, in the thick of changes while trying to walk through day to day life.
There’s no manual on how to accept change or how to move through the discomfort.
That’s one of the many things that I notice, the discomfort that comes with being alone, the constant itch to speak, reach out, do something outside of yourself to somehow cope with the change.
And that’s what I’ve been used to doing, not truly dealing with the reality at hand, rather trying to fill the temporary void with useless filllers, just to get my mind off of reality for a brief moment.
Now, I’m ready to and I allow the discomfort to take up space, rather than filling it. Spending time with myself and God, rather than giving my time to others.
Although this hasn’t been perfected, consciously making different choices in times of change is proving to be beneficial, in gaining more clarity on everything that’s taking place.
Time to assess, gain a clearer perspective, speak to God, hear the messages, rather than missing them because of the need to do, to fill.
When everyone wants so much for you… it’s important to ask yourself what do you truly want in that moment? When it feels like there’s currents pulling you in different directions. Standing still in your energy, rather than allowing yourself to be pulled to please others.
It is what it is and let it be what it is.
I’m learning not to force anything that clearly wasn’t coming my way in the first place, not to force connections or a lifestyle, trusting that I can go with my gut and that my intuition is connected to God. I no longer need to work against it.
Navigating change has taught me that no matter how much you may love someone, that still doesn’t mean it will work out.
You can love someone with the fullness of your heart and being, and they can also love you…but sometimes you have to let it go and, that is the truth of love. When you love so hard you put your pride aside for one another. So they can be the best version of themselves. Hard, bitter, but a heartbreaking beautiful thing. Allowing the knowing of what is best, to mean more than what you may want it to be. That is the greatest love of all. No conditions, just pure love.
And what I’ve realized, is to keep the love in your heart and allow that to emanate into every action, into how you treat others, yourself, your goals and dreams.
During changes, allow yourself the time to rest, the time to pour back in, the time to reflect and space to process.